I am not human.

sakhgsjk;;g well, still a WIP even though May is over... I STARTED writing chapter 30 after a little break, but family drama sapped my muse. Hopefully it will be done shortly, though. Anyway, I've realised I never posted the last few chapters of this at my journal!

Title: An Intimate Alliance of Contradictions, part 23-29/35??
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairing (this part): Remus/Frank (Little Miss Sunshine), unrequited Remus/Dwayne (LMS), Remus/Severus, hints of unrequited Remus/Peter
Summary: "It would take too long to explain the intimate alliance of contradictions in human nature which makes love itself wear at times the desperate shape of betrayal. And perhaps there is no possible explanation." ~ Joseph Conrad
Kinks/Warnings: many
Overall warnings: Angst
Challenge: LMOM '08
Word Count: 62K + (overall, and still going)
Notes: *flail* I've got at least 5-6 more chapters of this, but I won't be posting every day anymore. Hopefully every few days, as I need to breathe a little now that it's June. :P Thanks so so much to innerslytherin, who held my hand a lot, and mnemosyne_1, who kicked my grammar into shape, for the beta-reading this month!

(links to ALL chapters, if you missed the beginning, at the post to pervy_werewolf)
Part 23 l Part 24 l Part 25 l Part 26 l Part 27 l Part 28 l Part 29

My lmom fic is at about 47K (roughly, as I've been rounding up/down word counts). If I keep averaging 2K a day, I'll be over 60K when I'm done. The longest fic I have written previously has be right at 20k. I'm just sort of boggling at myself, because I was just telling someone last month that I didn't think I had it in me to write novel length (and yes, I did do LMOM and NaNo in '06, but lmom that year was all random stories and my NaNo novel became mostly incoherent by the last 10-15K.) Of course, I'm sure it helps in this case that it's like 50% porn. XD Anyway, new chapters I haven't posted here:

Title: An Intimate Alliance of Contradictions, part 22/29 (I hope)
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairing (these chapters): Remus/Peter, Remus/Severus, Remus/Spencer Reid (Harry Potter/Criminal Minds crossover)
Characters/Pairing (overall fic): Remus/Peter, Remus/Severus
Summary: "It would take too long to explain the intimate alliance of contradictions in human nature which makes love itself wear at times the desperate shape of betrayal. And perhaps there is no possible explanation." ~ Joseph Conrad
Kinks/Warnings: many *g*
Overall warnings: Angst
Challenge: LMOM '08
Word Count: 47K-ish, so far
Notes: Thanks so so much to innerslytherin and mnemosyne_1 for the beta-reading!

Part 15 l Part 16 l Part 17 l Part 18 l Part 19 l Part 20 l Part 21 l Part 22

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BONUS LMOM FICS! (One because I got stuck on AIAoC, and one because of Monkey Day! *G*)

Title: Remus' Favourite Toy
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairings: Remus/himself, Remus/monkey, Remus/Peter/monkey... no actual monkeys were harmed in the writing of this fic. *giggles*
Kinks/Warnings: Sex toys? Remus is very young when he has his first erection.
Challenge: LMOM, day twenty-one
Word count: 500 (two double drabbles, one single drabble)
Notes: Might be the oddest thing I've ever written. Dubiously beta'd by innerslytherin and mnemosyne_1!

Title: The Bet
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairing: Remus/Severus
Kinks/Warnings: shaving, finger sucking
Challenge: LMOM '08, day eighteen
Word Count: 650-ish
Notes: Weird little bunny, post-war AU, and PWP. Beta'd by the wonderful innerslytherin!

For those of you who don't follow pervy_werewolf, I've been participating in the Lusty Month of May fest there, which is just a massive Remus-centric porn parade throughout the this month. I did it and "won" in 2006, and was crazy enough to try again this year! And week two is over, so here's what came of that!

Title: An Intimate Alliance of Contradictions, parts 8-14 of 31 (I hope)
Rating: ranges from PG-13 to NC-17
Pairings (so far, entire fic): Remus/Severus, Remus/Peter, Severus/Remus/Peter (sort of, and only in fantasy), Peter/Bertha Jorkins (mentions of James/Lily and Sirius/Emmeline Vance)
Characters/Pairing (overall): Remus/Peter, Remus/Severus
Summary: "It would take too long to explain the intimate alliance of contradictions in human nature which makes love itself wear at times the desperate shape of betrayal. And perhaps there is no possible explanation." ~ Joseph Conrad
Kinks/Warnings (so far): Too many to list here
Overall warnings: Angst, also a character with a major issue accepting their homosexuality
Challenge: LMOM '08
Total Word Count (so far): 28K+
Notes: Thanks so so much to innerslytherin and mnemosyne_1 for beta reading, and saving Remus from brass instruments in his pants! :)

Part 8 l Part 9 l Part 10 l Part 11 l Part 12 l Part 13 l Part 14

Also, if you like Remus porn, go to the comm encourage some of us brave souls trying to last the month by leaving some feedback!

For those of you who don't follow pervy_werewolf, I've been participating in the Lusty Month of May fest there, which is just a massive Remus-centric porn parade throughout the this month. I did it and "won" in 2006, and was crazy enough to try again this year! Here's what I have so far!

Title: An Intimate Alliance of Contradictions, parts 1-7 of 31 (I hope)
Rating: ranges from PG-13 to NC-17
Pairings (so far): Remus/Severus, Remus/Peter, Peter/Bertha Jorkins (mentions of James/Lily and Sirius/Emmeline Vance)
Characters/Pairing (overall fic): Remus/Peter, Remus/Severus
Summary: "It would take too long to explain the intimate alliance of contradictions in human nature which makes love itself wear at times the desperate shape of betrayal. And perhaps there is no possible explanation." ~ Joseph Conrad
Kinks/Warnings (so far): Too many to list here
Overall warnings: Angst, also a character with a major issue accepting their homosexuality
Challenge: LMOM '08
Word Count (so far): 12K+
Notes: First two parts are sort of prologue-ish, as my brain was still adjusting to the idea of doing this thing again. :P I plan to span 7th year to POA, and keep this canon compliant. Thanks so so much to innerslytherin for inspiring the Remus/Peter love, and for the speed beta-reading. :)

Part 1 l Part 2 l Part 3 l Part 4 l Part 5 l Part 6 l Part 7

Also, if you like Remus porn, go to the comm encourage some of us brave souls trying to last the month! Comments are lower than I've seen them this year, and I know from doing it that even a few words of encouragement can really help keep your momentum going. I try, but with writing in it too, I get overwhelmed. (And I'm not just encouraging comments for myself, either. I know a major pairing in my fic is one that only a handful of people would ever read, so I wasn't expecting much feedback due to that, anyway, and besides, I'm enjoying writing it just for the writing of it! ...But if you want to encourage me too, I obviously wouldn't complain *G*)

I have all sorts of other thoughts rolling around in my head about doing this fest again, and how different an experience it is for me this year, but I will save those for another post. *G*

Title: On One Condition
Author: severity_softly
Rating: mild NC-17
Pairing: Snape/Lupin
Challenge: Trading Places
Words: under 800
Warnings: cross-dressing, mild D/s
Notes: For the lupin_snape Trading Places Challenge, based on osmalic's GORGEOUS art Oh What Fun. (NWS!) Betad by innerslytherin. *HUG* Also, I blame the tone entirely on that collar! GUH!

I have A LOT to say about writing this fic, which I may or may not ever get to typing out. I'm really not sure anyone really cares to hear me go on about my writing anyway... Actually, both my SnuSa this year and my Smutmas fic were interesting beasts to write... for me, at least... but I can't focus right now and feel sort of gross, so it will not be now that I babble. :P Anyway, I owe innerslytherin a million thanks for the beta, hand holding, hair pets, and loving arse kicking (this fic might've died in my head without her help and encouragement!), and enigmalea for the second beta and helping me fix my soppy ending. XD This was my SnuSa gift for snapelike, and quite a bit of a stretch for me, but I'm pretty pleased with the final result. :)

Title: A Hundred Tiny Threads
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Blinded in the final battle and stripped of his wand, Severus finds himself locked in a cell after the dust settles, feeling hopeless and no better than a Muggle. After a seemingly endless wait, he is finally allowed his "freedom" from Ministry incarceration only by, once again, binding his life to another's... but at least Lupin is better than the alternatives.
Pairings/Characters: Snape/Lupin, Minerva, Hermione, Bellatrix, minor omc
Warnings/kinks: Forced marriage, disability, H/C, first time, angst, romance
Word count: 20,000-ish
Authors notes: Snupin Santa gift for snapelike. Post-war, canon to HBP (AU). Title comes from a quote by Simone Signoret: "Chains do not hold a marriage together. It is threads, hundreds of tiny threads which sew people together through the years."

Whee! merry_smutmas reveals are up! And if I didn't gush enough in my comment, McKay, thank you again for my gift! ♥ ♥ ♥

I wound up writing a bit darker than usual for my gift to give in Smutmas, but it was fun once I hit my stride in it (heh, the entire first draft actually got scrapped as a gift and posted in October as a non-gift instead, because I wrote it all and decided the gift should really be something... else. *g* Something more specific.) I ended up quite pleased with what the final product was. Here it be:

Title: Old Times' Sake
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Snape/Lupin (Lupin/Tonks in the background)
Summary: When Remus turns to Severus for his potion even after everything Severus has done, Remus isn't sure what he trusts, or wants, Severus to do more - help him or kill him. He just never expected Severus would ask for the payment he does.
Warnings: adultery, dub-con, prostitution (in a sense), breathplay, suicidal thoughts, more...
Author's notes: DH compliant. Much thanks to enigmalea for the beta! Written as a merry_smutmas gift for snegurochka_lee. :)

I've been holding off on recs until I had a few, and I have been reading really slowly this year. How do you all read so fast?! Anyway, as a result, two out of my three recs here are gifts for ME! I was a VERY lucky girl this year and I couldn't have hoped for more! So, here we go! (Yes, I KNOW some of these have already been heavily recced, but perhaps some on my flist are slow like me!)

How it Happened by Anon (@ Snupin Santa on lupin_snape, Snape/Lupin, NC-17)
Prompt (edited a bit by me): After years of celibacy, Severus discovers he likes men. Explore Severus’ reconnection to himself as a sexual being... tentative advances, wild gay bar encounters, enlisting Remus’ help.

Okay, I'll be honest. Slutty!Remus is not something I tend to "get." I read it (who wouldn't, I ask?!) I can enjoy it, too, though I tend to stick with authors I know I like for my slutty!Remus needs. *G* I just can't see him that way without a reason... and, boy, does this Remus have a reason! This is absolutely brilliant Remus characterization. He's so hurt and lonely and self-destructive... and yet he's still Remus, and he's still strong-willed and kind and gentle and hesitant in that way that younger Remus tends to be. That's, of course, not all there is to this. Severus is wonderful as well in his reactions to being indoctrinated into gay muggle life and the details and supporting characters in the Muggle gay scene are awesome. Remus being pet to one Miss Ambrosia Velure is to die for. Really, this is a great read!

Jerusalem by Anon (@ Snupin Santa on lupin_snape, Snape/Lupin, R, mpreg, disability) FOR ME! *GLEE*
And was Jerusalem builded here, among these dark Satanic mills? (William Blake).

This was wonderful! A great balance of humor and wibbles that had me grinning the whole time. A really great twist on the Tonks/Teddy situation, and the supporting cast is especially well-used. *ahem* OMG EILEEN EILEEN EILEEN AJKGHAJK;G!!! *cough* Okay, if you know me, you know I love Eileen, and she's only in it briefly, but I LOVED her SO much! I couldn't have hoped for anything more with prompt, and if I said more, I'd be ruining things you you guys. So, just go read it, even if mpreg isn't generally your thing. It's really very lovely. :)

A Fine Romance This Is by Anon (@ merry_smutmas, Snape/Lupin, NC-17, cross-dressing) ANOTHER FOR ME! *MORE GLEE*;)
Post-war Alternate Reality. It's been three months of (admittedly good) shagging, but Severus wants to know where he stands with Remus and takes drastic measures to find out.

I love the push and pull between Severus and Remus here, as Severus tries to figure out where he stands and Remus tries to keep himself curled up in his protective shell. Severus' inner voice is perfect, complex and insecure, and just lovely. I love that the cross-dressing was there for a reason - and what a reason! - and not just kink for the sake of kink (not that there's anything wrong with that!) LOVED! And if you can handle cross-dressing (or even if you're on the fence regarding it), you should go read it! :)

In fact, pretty!Snape icon, because we all know deep down he's a queen! :P

That's it for now. I was hoping to settle in and do some more fest catching up, but it's gotten late on me. *sigh*

Title: Even Ground
Pairing: Lupin/Snape
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Mwpp era (underage sex), dub-con (in the interest of full disclosure, it starts as non-con), first time, a little frottage, oral, dark!Remus, a bit of ropes, pretty much pwp, blackmail!sex
Word Count: 2300

Title: Gratitude Bestows Reverence
Pairing: Snape/Lupin
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3,400ish
Warnings/kinks: completely post-war AU, mpreg, genderfuck, love!sex/reverent!sex, mild angst
Summary: Severus was not generally one to feel ashamed of the things he couldn't help, but they hadn't had sex since they had discovered Severus was pregnant, twenty one weeks ago. It had been like a marathon of abstinence, considering they normally couldn't keep their hands off each other.
Notes: Beta'd by enigmalea and kittehkat! Title from a quote by John Milton: "Gratitude bestows reverence, allowing us to encounter everyday epiphanies, those transcendent moments of awe that change forever how we experience life and the world." For hiddenfantasy, whose Remus I am beginning to believe I have a telepathic link to.

1. a) Title: The Time is Right
Word Count: 100
Rating: R? (maybe light NC-17)
Challenge: #120 touch @ snupin100
Characters: Remus/Severus
Warnings: Genderfuck, implied MPREG
Authors Notes: Post-war AU. Probably inspired by ellid and nimrod_9's madness over at snape100 (LJ).

b) There is also another MPREG comment drabble (LJ) that Ellid bunnied me into! ;)

2. 21 pounds even off! Urgh, but coming off so slowly! I need to get back on track with exercise. I had a lazy week, then DH came out and I spent the next week reading and internetting over it, then it just got stupidly hot outside. Must re-commit to exercise now that it's gotten ever so slightly cooler!

3. I'm in an icon making mood and looking for Snupin Mpreg art that's not gift art that I can see about iconing with the artist's permission. But I'm totally failing at finding almost anything. Rec me some snupin mpreg art?

What is it with me and mpreg all of a sudden? ;)

Title: Hoo-ha
Rating: Hard R
Pairing: Snape/Lupin
Words: less than 300
Summary: Severus doesn't know any sexy words for his new genitals.
Warnings: genderfuck, CRACK, utter fail at being sexy ;)
A/N: Inspired by this post. hiddenfantsy's fault. And... I think I have enough shame reserve not to post this to any comms. :)

( Severus arched up, meeting Remus' body and rocking against it as much as he could manage with Remus pinning his wrists. )

Title: Without Preamble (spoilery warnings and secondary pairing at link)
Word Count: 100 x 2
Rating: Hard R
Characters: Snape/Lupin
Challenge (at snape100 on LJ, though I'm linking to it at my JF): Random Facts about Severus Snape: Severus Snape once rode a bull, and nine months later it had a calf.

My muse is awake, amazingly, but apparently not happy with my ships. ;)

Title: Whether You Believe It or Not
Rating: G, I suppose
Characters: Snape, Lupin, implied past!teen!Snape/Lupin
Warnings: Angst
Words: 100
Challenge: PoA @ snape100