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Helium Raven (severity_softly) wrote,
@ 2008-03-12 22:19:00

Current mood:	okay
Entry tags:	fic: harry potter fandom, fic: rated r, pairing: remus/james

A Week Prior
Title: A Week Prior
Rating: R
Pairing: Remus/James
Words: under 500
Summary: This is our last opportunity. Our only one.
Warnings: angst, infidelity (depending on how strictly you define it)
Notes: beta'd by the lovely innerslytherin

Remus grunted and shifted away from the wall, but the weight of James' body kept him pinned. "We shouldn't--"

"Moony," James interrupted urgently.

James pulled back and gave Remus a look that Remus was certain he'd never bestowed upon Lily. Remus understood it. He understood it because of seven years of friendship and a year and a half of something else that neither of them ever acknowledged because it was too hard to face, an ache they knew could never be soothed. Not completely, anyway.

"I can't-- I can't-- Moony, I'll be married in a week and we'll never-- this will never--" James stumbled over the words as he clumsily trailed kisses over Remus' neck

This is our last opportunity. Our only one. We wasted so much time and now it's too late, Remus filled in mentally. He clamped his eyes shut and listened to his heart break, wishing this was happening any other way. He lifted his hands, hesitated, and then started pulling open James' shirt. In a second, their hands were both flying, pulling open buttons and splaying their fingers across exposed skin until they were both shirtless, trousers half open and rubbing against each other, half-moaning and half-sobbing with need and desire and so much more.

Remus' lips were parted and he was panting, and James kept sucking and nibbling at them. Remus moaned and turned his head away, shutting his eyes against the emotion.

"Moony, kiss me."

Remus opened his eyes and looked at James, then only shook his head. For a minute, pain flashed across James' face and Remus wished he could take it back.

"Please."

Again. No.

"Why?" James finally whispered, starting to look wounded.

Remus took James' chin in his hand. "This is the only time." He paused, bit his lip, and looked away. "Isn't it?"

Remus felt James nod, silently, solemnly.

"Then I can't bear it." I want it too much.

"Oh, Remus, I'm sorry," James blurted, his face melting into lines of pain. He kissed Remus' lips again, his cheek, his nose, then down Remus' jaw and across his shoulder. Then he was shifting against Remus again, his fingers in the top of Remus' pants. "I just--"

Remus felt a rush of want go through him as James' hands slid lower, and he cut James off, "Don't. Let's... not explain." His breath had suddenly left him and his fingers curled into the back of James' trousers desperately. "Or... talk. Okay?" he panted, shifting up until James' fingertips were buried in the nest of curls around his cock and wrapping his leg around James'.

Remus whimpered; James panted desperately, then murmured "Mmhmm," just before they lost themselves to each other completely.

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	alwaysasnapefan 2008-03-13 03:17 am UTC (link)
	Awww. So sweet. Well, bittersweet. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	severity_softly 2008-03-13 11:53 am UTC (link)
	g Thanks! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	mindabbles 2008-03-13 04:22 am UTC (link)
	Oh, ouch. You packed so much into this little fic. There are some very lovely lines here as well. Well done! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	severity_softly 2008-03-13 11:53 am UTC (link)
	Thank you! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	purplefluffycat 2008-03-13 11:35 am UTC (link)
	So much emotion here in such little space - I really felt for Remus in his quandary between wanting James so much and having his heart broken n the process. PurpleFluffyCat x (Reply to this) (Thread)

	severity_softly 2008-03-13 11:54 am UTC (link)
	Thanks so much! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	(Anonymous) 2008-03-13 11:39 am UTC (link)
	Oh my, that was EXCELLENT. Despite the fact that R/S is my OTP, I still adore Remus/James. There's some undefinable quality to the two that just grips me. This was good good GOOD. :) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	severity_softly 2008-03-13 11:58 am UTC (link)
	Hee! My OTPs are Remus/Severus and Remus/Peter, and I've never actually written this pair, but I'm so glad it worked. Thanks so much! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	torino10154 2008-03-13 02:12 pm UTC (link)
	My heart was aching here, for both of them really, although more so for Remus. Well done. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	severity_softly 2008-03-13 03:43 pm UTC (link)
	Thanks! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	envinyatar15 2008-03-13 03:11 pm UTC (link)
	Lovely! I love this pairing... There's so much angst potential, but there's also this connection between the two of them that balances the angst out. In your case? So the angst is prevalent, but you can also feel that they know each other. There's so much emotion in this ficlet, and it just. Makes me ache for the two of them. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	severity_softly 2008-03-13 03:45 pm UTC (link)
	G I've never actually written this pair, but got randomly bunnied into it last night. Glad to know people who ship the pair like it! Thanks so much! (Reply to this) (Parent)

christophem
2008-03-14 02:15 am UTC (link)

Remus took James' chin in his hand. "This is the only time." He paused, bit his lip, and looked away. "Isn't it?"

Remus felt James nod, silently, solemnly.

"Then I can't bear it." I want it too much.

"Oh, Remus, I'm sorry," James blurted...

Ah! I have never, ever cried as a result of a fic, but I nearly did for this one. Because I feel so sorry for Remus, and for James, even though James is getting married in a week and yet he's really screwing with Remus's feelings, but... somehow, it feels like they both desperately want and not want this, at once, and it's so BEAUTIFUL, and your writing is beautiful (the quote above, I actually felt like treasuring each word. Your dialogue is fabulous).

And... you created love in this. Even though, it's so hard to write love, and even just the act of sex can't convey love, but Remus and James know each other, and the whole "seven years of friendship and a year and a half of something else" really drove that point in. That it's love, it isn't some fling, it isn't just sex, it isn't just an opportunity for emotionless rutting before James has to marry Lily.

I'm putting this in my memories...

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	innerslytherin 2008-03-15 02:06 am UTC (link)
	I love this. You know I love this. And that part quoted just above me, that in particular is what made me LOVE it, but it's just gorgeously written, and you give SO MUCH without having to explain or go into details. Perfect. (Reply to this)